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I need to stop thinking about you because i know you're not thinking about me.

and it hurts me so bad.

licensed pharmacist

dear bloggie,

hi blog, i miss you. i miss writing random, stupid and nonsense things here. anyway, what i would like to tell you is that, i am now a REGISTERED PHARMACIST of the philippines. yes! thank You Lord Jesus Christ! You are the best! after how many years of studying, from kinder, grade school, high school to college, finally, my sacrifices and all the things i have done to be a professional paid off na jud!

i thought graduating in college is fulfilling, but becoming a professional and passing thr board exam and having 3 -letter ad on on your name is more fulfilling, feels like nirvana, eh?! haha. i know it is just another start of a fruitful chapter in my life. i got tons of rice to eat pa to become what i want to become! i got so many plans in my life right now, i am leaving for good on septermber 9, and will be staying in Vegas or Los Angeles, i was thinking of taking the pharmacy assistant exam, if i pass, i will work in a community pharmacy, say, walgreens or cvs, or in walmart. a 2- year experience maybe is enough, then i'll take the foreign state board exam in nevada or california, save money, stay and live in new york. ugh, i've been dreaming of living in new york, put up a house there, build a family, basta ganun. i know Lord God, tabangan jud nimo ko dire kay u never fail me jud, You are always generous and always here beside me.

• anyway, i am currently staying here in isulan, of course, sa akong HOME, it  does not feel like home anymore to me, because i just feel it. i just love the presence of my nieces and nephews, at least that makes our house a little of "homey". anyway again, i've been spending my days, 
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• nights here on baby sitting, eating, playing with the kids, and staying up online until 3 am. i'm enhancing my skills on stalking. haha. anyway, the word "stalk" came out, (okay, this is another story), i believe he has now a girlfriend, and it's breaking me into pieces, i don't know if i have really moved on or i have just pretended that i have moved on. but i do believe, that, i did not. :( honestly, this is really painful. i've been telling my friends, cousin, to set me up with a guy, you know, just to "hang out" or say "flirt" so i can totally forget him, i just don't know why i am so fcking in love with him, honestly, he's not even gwapo, he's not smart, puro rin naman wrong grammar/spelling, he's not even my type, i mean he did not meet my standards, i just do not know. ka sad ng life ko oi, but life must go on. i'm too loyal. makakamove on lang siguro ako kapag may bago. but it's okay lang talaga, REGISTERED PHARMACIST bitaw ko. haha. sa states na siguro ako makakakita. hehehehe. 

andami ko pang gustong sabihin, ito na lang muna, magbablog na ako at least twice a week, para naman marami akong basahin at the end of the year. self, stay strong!

PS: what is wrong with the blogger format here in ipad, i can't fix the the paragraph's alignment. ugh. take care!