of demons and satan agents

click THIS: this is the worst and the MOST HURTING article i've ever read. it's about an abortion camp, but more like of satan's camp. *tears *tears

some comments say it's like a satirical post or something, like a joke, maybe. but i still don't get it!

bipolar means two polar. ha!

i like you- before. i really LIKED you. but what happened? i don't understand you. why do you need to pretend that you like my company? why do you need to tell lies and stories just to be with me? ha! excuse me, you're busted!

i mean, matagal ko nang alam. feeling mo siguro ang tanga-tanga ko noh?! haha. sa tagal ng ating pinagsamahan, tinuruan mo akong magbasa ng bawat galaw at salitang binibitawan mo. nung una, ok pa tayo, natural pa ang flow, kumbaga. pero nung nag-umpisa ka nang magpakita ng signs and symptoms, sabi ko "eto na, konti na lang". and poof! it became koko crunch! malutong pa sa koko crunch! hindi naman sana ako susulat nito kung hindi mo ginawa ang ginawa mo bago lang. nabibwesit ako sa iyo. pero minsan naaawa rin. ewan ko sa iyo. may nagsabi sa akin, baka may BIPOLAR DISORDER ka. hindi ko alam kung anung sakit na yan, pero alam kong neurological disorder yan at kailangan mo magpadiagnose.

pero sa katunayan, mas nangingibabaw ang awa ko kaysa inis ko sa'iyo, hindi kita mabitawan sa ere, kahit anu pa ang ginagawa mo, andiyan pa rin ako, totoo kasi feelings ko sa'iyo. kahit sa ginagawa mong kabalastugan, nagpapakatanga pa rin ako, para sa ATIN. sayang kasi ang nasimulan, di ba? ok lang kung hindi mo pa kayang sabihin ang lahat sa akin, naiintidihan kita. sana malaman mo, napapagod rin ako mag tanga-tangahan sa harap mo, pagod na pagod na talaga ako. promise. hindi ako susuko, kakayanin ko ito! kasi alam ko sa huli, may magandang patutunguhan ang aking "pag-aarte/pagtatanga-tangahan". magiging maganda ang ating relasyon. alam ko rin, na sa huli, magkakaroon ka na ng "guts" na sabihin lahat ng feelings mo. but i'm telling you right now, you can tell your feelings and you can turn all you lies into truths right now, i'm very willing to listen and understand your side, sorry for being so judgmental all the time. i know, you know that i love you!

feeling ko, alam mo blog link ko, kung nabasa mo ito at natamaas ka, tumpak! ikaw na nga ito. haha. kapayapaan pa rin ang hangad ko. salamat.

ps: parang ako ata ang may bipolar disorder, dahil sa post kong ito. kaloka.

of ayala center davao

good thing, abreeza (an ayala mall) has opened. i like the fact that it's open now. new place for tambay, new environment to stroll, i like the interiors, the stores and almost everything. but i hate the fact that it causes a very very very very very very heavy traffic. i know, it's normal cause it was its first day. but consider this: a usual 5-10 min jeepney ride took us more than an hour! plus the very sticky sweat running down on your forehead to your cheeks to your neck down to your cleavage. consider this again, the taxi and jeepney drivers who took naps on a national high way while vehicle engines are on. plus the streaking and sizzling uva rays given by the sun. haha. i know, ako rin! MANUL. haha. i saw enchong dee anyway, and joseph marco and jake roxas. haha. fangirlism!

i like the fact too, that forever 21 store was not there. thank God! i don't know why some people wish to have it here, (as if naman, ano, haha!). if it was there, i would discard half in my closet. joke. sorry for being so selfish, but i really hate it when i've stumbled in a person with the same blouse/t-shirt/design as mine! consider it as an embarrassment! but i think, f21 phil and f21 usa items are not alike.

starbucks in davao is so trending! imagine, not everyone loves coffee, and imagine a very long line outside starbucks. and imagine photographs of people holding grande frappes. haha.

Gmall (gaisano mall) which i think, the busiest mall in davao seems to be so silent for the past 3 days. haha. i know, everything will be back in normal after a month or so.

ok. nonsense.

on mother's day

i phone called my nanay in california, she's off-duty anyway. i greeted her "nanay, happy mother's day! i love and i miss u!", i always tell her i love you before hanging up the phone whenever we talk. it's not corny, i promise! it's the very best thing to do especially showing your love and thank them! but i feel awkwardness when i talk to tatay. haha. bias much.

i texted my sister in nevada, she didn't reply, i called her. unfortunately, it was 1am, that means they're all asleep. i left a message, kasi sosyal, answering machine ang nagsagot sa akin. one word, MANUL. i greeted her, the usual greeting.

i also texted my two other sisters in isulan and some friends. posted a picture in fb with i think the 4 loveliest mothers in the world. NANAY, and my 3 sisters. aside from that, i greeted myself "happy mother's day", too. i agreed with someone who greeted me that thing. you know, in my clan, i'm the youngest in both of my father and mother's cousins. it means, i have !@#$%^&*() nieces and nephews (i don't know exactly the number of my pamangkins). some graduated, some were married, and still babies. but those who are closer to my heart are my 6 pamangkins, who never fail to give me joy and happiness and kisses and backpains, and headaches and rants and tears. they're so wonderful, they're my kids, not from my womb but they're my kids because i love them and they love me back. i am their Tita A-an and mama A-an. (when they were still learning to talk, they always pronounce my name Tita Jo Anne as Tita A-an. i like it anyway, it sounds cool.

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a funny conversation with a good friend

summer lovin'

one of the best summer swimming event ever! thank you guys! esp to Cyril and cyril's mom who gave us the free pool tickets to apo view.

cool people:

kyna, diane, dane, leyenne, april, shobe, zaf, jandi, nick, cyril and 3 more guys who are other halves of some girl's name i mentioned. hihi.

good time to relax, parang walang report at quiz kinabukasan ah. haha. uber late dinner at Toryano's afterwards. that was so tiring, srsly.