how do u conceal puffy eyes?

i don't know what I did, 2014 is just so not for me. this is not my year, my tatay died, my mom left me in a foreign country, I dont have health insurance and I need to work to live because i have nobody to accompany me, and what's making it not my year again? my boyfriend who I thought is really the one for me, broke up with me. Sakit.

if you happen to read my previous post which i converted to draft (u cant read it anymore), i'm so sorry and i don't have the intention of judging you or insulting you. I highly respect you, what I wrote before was due to my jealousness and because i was really really mad at him. i'm so so sorry. nadala lang talaga ako sa emotion, I hope you understand. but, how did u get here?

flying back and trying my luck in America

Hi bloggie, I miss you, I miss writing here.

I actually haven't finished my previous post, bahala na. I'll start a new one here. Now, where do I start?

Oh yes, here, my new life in America, being miss independent.

After the death of my tatay, my mom and I flew back to America, this time, trying my luck in Los Angeles. I went back to find a job, try my luck and to move on from what happened and to forget the tears and sorrow my family had. I was completely a couch potato for the first month stay here, I just can't stay in the apartment doing nothing, so I decided to fill up employment forms from health care agencies, browsed all available hiring companies, from sales ladies to cashiers to push carts to slaughter houses, to barista and all the job not relating to pharmacy and all typical work when you're still starting. I'm desperate of having a job that would help me pay my rent and buy food. well, none of the big companies called me. Finally, a call from the health care agency, that was really precious, finally, a first paid job after 1 year tambay. I worked as a caregiver, a work that I sworn to myself that I will never ever try. I ate my words haha. Well, desperation for money led me to do so, and being a caregiver isn't that bad at all, it's a decent work and pays you well. My first ever caregiving experience was not that really bad, I was like a private nurse and a security guard. The agency paid me $120 for 12 hours, not bad, I did nothing, I was reading a botanical book the whole time, my patient almost sleeps a whole day but not in coma. The next week, I had another call, they paid me $100 check for a 24-hr stay-in caregiver, seriously, I was just texting and watching tv the whole time. what else? Ah, yes, another call from the same agency, a 3-day stay-in work, that was really toxic, they paid me $130/day, I survived 3 days without tv, internet, just my ipad. So I almost had $500 plus savings in my bank acct, not bad. Then I stopped accepting calls from the agencies. 

Because I have to review for my certified pharmacy technician exam. I reviewed for 2weeks. The exam was reaaaaaaaaaallllly haaaaard, I had a headache taking that, more difficult than the Pharmacy licensure exam in Ph. It's more on US pharmacy laws, business administration, pharmacy reimbursements, mktg, insurance policies, way too far from what I've learned in my college. But yes, I passed the exam. Thank You Lord. I am now Jo Anne D. Aujero CPhT here, stands for certified pharmacy technician. My license is recognized nationwide. After receiving my cpht license, I started to process my requirements for my California State pharm tech license, one requirement was of course my cpht license. AND RIGHT NOW I'M STILL PATIENTLY WAITING FOR MY STATE LICENSE, OH GOD, IM WAITING FOR ALMOST 2 MONTHS NOW, I NEEEEEEED MY LICENSE NAAA TALAGA SO I CAN FIND A PHARM TECH JOB/VOLUNTEER NA HERE IN CALIFORNIA.

And, right now, Typing this, I'm actually at work, yes, I have a regular work, still, as a caregiver 4x a week. I'm on my 2nd month already. I love this work, I have fast internet access, tv, a good bed and bathroom, free food and a nice patient (but sometimes maldita), her cute lawyer na apo and very very nice patient's daughter and a very very annoying dog. I love this white family, oh they're Jews. But this is kind of a boring work, right now, I'm in bed, browsing the internet for 4 staright hours because my patient is always sleeping or just watching tv. I actually don't work at all, I just give her food and medications and some daily hygienic care. I can watch movies online without my patient bothering me. haha That's all, not that toxic. 

Yes, I'm starting to save. I don't do shopping anymore unlike the first month, and yessss I bought an HTC phone out of my own money, shop for my dresses and some pasalubongs for my family in Ph, do all groceries and pay rent all from my pocket. I better save more for my school next year, yay, can't wait to go home to study, be independent and of course, to see my family, friends and boyfriend. I have a boyfriend, that would be a separate post. bye.

reminiscing the first half of 2014

hi blog, tagal ko na rong hindi nakapagpost, i miss you. i will try to remember all the events happened after nung last blogpost ko dito, my last post was dated january 9,2014. let's start with january 10 or 11 ata ito.

my sister and i were so busy preparing for my niece's 1st bday, designing the house, cooking desserts and all. it was evening of january 10 when i recieved a fb msg from my sisters saying, tatay was rushed into the hospital due to hypertension, he fainted too, he was unconcious. we thought it was just his usual hypertensive crisis incident, but it was not. my family in isulan told us that he was been snoring all the time, he said he was in a semi-comatose state, we panicked. i didnt sleep that night, yes, i was crying and praying at the same time. i can't sleep, but i need to because we have to prepare for my niece's bday on the 12th, i slept around 8am of january 11, i slept for an hour or two. i tried to be productive that day, tried to sleep again but i just cant sleep, my tatay's situation made me so worried, he was still in coma state. 12th of january came, at the middle of the party, i went to my room to ask for updates about tatay, still, bad news, i cried. after almost 4 weeks in the ICU, my tatay is still in coma, my sisters told me he opened his eyes everyday for about 3-5 seconds, then that's it. it came to a point that my nanay was so worried because tatay has not opened his eyes for 4days, the doctors said, he was still in a deep coma. we recieved a call in the middle of the night from my brother and sister in Ph, they asked us to come home. maybe because something will happen. on the 14th day of february, we arrived in general santos city. on the next day, we visited tatay in the icu, my sister stayed for only 4 nights because she still has work to do and of course, her family in vegas needs her. i stayed there to help nanay and to watch and care tatay in the icu. 

i celebrated my bday in gensan, with tatay, still in the icu and with nanay, we just ate at pizza hut with my cousins in sm and ate dinner with niña and leander at sm too, of course, i'm thankful because they remembered my bday, they brought cakes too, somehow, my stress level went down. on the 19th, i celebrated it with jandi and zaf, we had fun too. our (nanay and i) daily life in gensan was full of stress, we ran out of money, energy and sometimes, hope. we get up at 6am, and go to thew hospital at 7 or 8am, and go home around 6-9pm, depending on tatay's case. i experienced, okaaay wait, i can't finish this, im crying already, i remembered all the heartbreaking scenes in the hospital, i cant breathe

first post for 2014

maayo nga bag-ong tuig mga friends, ma ilonggo lang ko, kapoy isip sing tama nga grammar.

ambot ngaa ko gibuksan ang blogger.com, wala man ko topic or maski ano nga gusto ishare. ah, maisip anay ko, ano man? ay sige, ari oh

akon ante, sa side ni tatay, napatay, si ante inday, tungod daw sa lung cancer, namisdiagnosed pa gid sya, kaluoy. pero at least, nakapahuway na gid sya tarong, nakita ko man abi iya sufferings kag sacrifices tong buhi pa sya, masubo lang gid, new year pa gid abi kag 4 days after her 71st bday. sige lang, upod niya man ang Ginoo naton.

ari, mashare naman ko sa akon love life, ay hindi man sya love life, pero ambot kung LOVE gid man, gaduha duha pako kung love ko gid man sya or char2 lang siguro, pero basta bal-an ko nahurt gid ako tong nagdesisyon kami na keep distance anay kami, ahay, wala pa gane isa ka semana ang bag-ong tuig nakahibi na ko ya. amo abi ni oh, chatmate kag textmate ko sya tong sa pilipinas ako, asta nakaabot ko 4 months dire sa vegas, sya akon kaistorya kada hapon asta gab-i asta mag alas dos sing kaagahon (sa pinas morning-afternoon), amo ako sina magpulaw sa internet para lng maistorya sya, video chat, voice msgs, text msgs, maski tong Christmas kag new year, nag video chat kami, siyempre makahappy, kay ginakilig ko, at least bal-an ko may tao nga special ang tan.aw sa akon, hambal niya pa gane, gitrato nya ko as "uyab" nya, inlove daw sya sa akon, ako naman, hindi ko bal-an, pero siyempre hnd mn ko magdeny, gusto ko man sya. alangan, magpulaw ba ko asta 2am kung di ko sya gusto?? pero gipigilan ko lang gid kay hindi pa pwede, malayo ang las vegas sa davao, wala pako trabaho and most of all, wala pako kwarta pangbakal ticket, kag siyempre, career first anay ko. pero basta nahurt gid ko tong "keep distance" conversation namon, sa kadugayan sa amon online communication, ginapangita nya na presence ko, which is imposible pa subong. kung subong, mas madala ihatag ang love ko, kay sa presence. charaught gud. igat2 lang tani plano ko pay, pero boooom, nagsineryusohanay man. iba ni nga laki, hindi ni tong ex ko nga pirme ko ginamention sa akon mga posts. iba duman ni sya, mas maayo ni batasan.

subong nga tuig 2014, plano ko siyempre, mangita gid trabaho, mabalhin guru ko sa los angeles next month, didto ko mangita work, maski sales girl, or waitress anay tapos prcess ko dayun akon pharm tech certification sa state of california. sunod na ng gugma, bal-an ko may ara gid para sa akon, may gihatag gid ang Ginoo para sa akon, it's either nagmeet na kmi or magmeet pa kami sa future, pero bal-an ko may ara gid. lovable man ko nga babaye, gwapa man ko, buot man ko, ayos man akon personality, bright kag talented. chossssss. kabalo pa gid ko magluto, maghugas pinggan, limpyo balay, laba kag expert ko magbantay bata. limpyado man ko sa akon lawas, wala sakit kag determinado sa mga bagay2 na gusto maabot. amo lang to. kaihion na gid ko. publish ko na ni. babayu