dad

i've been spending my weeks with this guy, exclusively dating with him. and because we all know where it would take place in the future, i texted my tatay.

11/16/11
me: tay, bata mo ba, kabalo na magdate-date. i love u!
tatay: *reply deleted
me:*reply deleted

11/19/11
me: hello tay! pwd na manguyab bata mo? hehe, iprove ko na honor list gihapon ko this sem.

12/1/11
me: hi dad! i'm bored, i'm not listening in the class.

tatay: good evening jo! i've been puzzled and wondering by your many texts for weeks now that i can't decipher if what's wrong with you. are you emotionally or just psychologically disturbed? OR IT'S JUST NOW THAT YOU'VE LEARNED TO FALL IN LOVE? tell me so i can help before it gets worse.

me: O________o

me: inspired ako dad. haha. because of him always ako makasmile. same lang man gihapon akon study habit. and kung tag 8:30pm na matapos klase ko, ginaupdan niya ko magdinner and ginadul-ong niya ako sa boarding house. don't worry, kabalo kami magbehave.

me: i was not listening in the class because the subject is religion. and expect everybody is bored.

i've been aiming for my parents' trust, and i've been maintaining myself to be behaved and honest to them. i love nanay and tatay so much! they won't allow me to have boyfriend, but i tell them, we can wait, 2 years to go dude! chos.

3

sinong inlove? ako! haha. we're still friends though, but we're getting there. we're so futuristic. i want him to meet my tatay! heehee. i don't care what others say about him, as long as i'm contented with his company, i'm happy for "us", he's so nice, gentleman, pogi, macho, mabango. my friends are so happy too, according to them, iba daw ako makilig and mainlove. others say, cute couple daw kami. i'll be a first honor Dean's lister because i'll make him as my inspiration together with my family and friends. chos!

psl you guys, hani and jhed know him. haha! ultimate hs crush nia ako and nabasted ko na rin siya dati pa. haha. i hope you guys are happy for me<3

photo blog

dengue

last tuesday, i woke up with a 39.5 degree celcius temp, then tatay asked me to take care of the hardware because he'll be busy on cutting some trees. later that afternoon, i started to shiver, i went home, taking my usual fever medication- acetaminophen. later on, i had my check-up. have my clarithromycin and erdosteine for my cough. on the next day, i still have my fever, cough, and i did not get to enjoy each spoon i take for my meal, i have the worst taste buds ever. ugh:// i tried to take w23ftyu8898 liters of gatorade just to rehydrate me. we looked for some hospital but it seems that they're all occupied. i had instead my IV infusion set, injected by some nurse around. i stayed at home for almost 3 nights with my dextrose on, but nothing positively special happening, so they looked again for some hospital and found this oh-please-get-me-out-of-here-because-it's-fucking-dirty-here. plus the nurses don't do "rounds", i hate it:// i was diagnosed with dengue, i have a platelet count from 145 to 146 to 95, to 81, to 99. my nanay, and sister from sates are pushing me to have blood transfusion, and my kuya fom manila kept on pushing me to drink tawa2, plus peeps here are telling me to eat durian to boost my platelet, i'm eating and drinking at the same time. chos. kapoy edit. nka dextrose pa right had ko. kawawa na left hand and fingers ko, puno na ang needle pricks and needle insertions :// pray for me, Lord God, help me po:))) Amen.

extra activities

as what i've promised to myself before entering college, that is, i should join clubs/orags and be active on it... guess what? i'm starting to move. heehee. if you're a reader of this blog since entering college, you probably know that i haven't joined any clubs in school, or any dance groups or contest because i was so busy in my academic activities. yes, i have moved already. my first exposure in stage was my performance for group impersonation (pharmacy acq party)(we got 2nd place), which, we did Dream girls impersonation. second, i joined the SPC mentor's group, the geekiest group in school. i joined the acq party, basic mentoring seminar and team building. 3rd, i joined the intramurals hosting audition, fourth, i did host the 3rd night event of our intrams. so far, the greatest activity i did was to be a host.

i know that these are just simple moves, but i'm just so proud of myself, at least, i've moved and showed to them that i excel both in acads and other stuffs. anyway, i'm planning to join some more events, especially in our department, next target is to join any contest in pharmacy week, (quiz bee, sana), and join more clubs and be more active in mentoring.

PS: maraming competent and excellent sa school na hindi pa nagmomove, yung iba, hindi naman competent, puro confidence lang (remembre, confidence is not enough) ang naglilead ng school orgs, hindi lang isa, nakakaabot pa until 3 orgs. hindi lang kayo ang estudyante sa school, give chance to others naman. let others take the spotlight, they're more deserving to some who has already the spotlight.

sembreak is freedom for college

everybody knows that it's sembreak already! yipee. we had our final exams last oct 17-19. i did good in most of the minor subjects and physical pharmacy, (i think). and i've tried my best in answering my pharmacology exam. but i think, i will fail:(

subject review:

physical pharmacy: i thought it was all pure calculations and dosage forms, but we got rheology, solubility and many more talking about the physical properties of drug and how to stabilize them. talked about the flow properties of powders inside the capsules and compression of powders into tablets. reader, did you get that? so, people, don't label pharmacists as plain tinderas in drugstores, mkay? we have chemistry every sem, don't ever underestimate the power of pharmacists, she/he may give you a lethal drug that you may not know. haha. i like our professor!

pharmacology: i hate this. i've learned nothing. i hate our professor. we did "self-study", but that is not sufficient, of course, we need the help of our professor, he's so useless. ugh. oust him please! anyway, "nothing" was a joke. i've read about CNS drugs, anti-asthma, neurotransmitters, the liberation-adsorption-distribution-metabolism-excretion-response of drugs. i know what the drug does to the body and what the body does to the drug.

history: even though, i don't really like the professor, i like this subject. of course, you get to know what the spaniards did, their cruelty and what our forefathers did to gain freedom and independence. since then, i was a fan of history subjects.

bioethics: i don't really like our professor and the discussion, but i like the topics discussed. we talked about abortion, PMS, sex, suicide, euthanasia and other principles regarding medical situations. i was exempted in final exam anyway, because i had 90+ grade both in prelim and midterm, we were only 2.

rizal: i really hate rizal, both the hero and subject. i hate waking up in the morning just to attend this class. plus the professor seemed to be so braggy about her achievements, she tells us about it all the time. (paulit-ulit!). but i love reading the book, rizal's story and his love life, especially when he was executed in dapitan. but i hate how historians exaggerate his stories, he's great, i know that, but there's something in him that he does not deserve to be called as such.

RS400: i hate the subject, it was really boring. but i appreciate the efforts of our professor. he kept on doing new things in every meeting just to wake us up from his boring subject. we talked about Christian morality, conscience, guilt, human acts and values. from the very first meeting until the end, i don't get the point of each:(

basic statistics: easy. haha. srsly, it was easy, even if you will not attend my prof's lectures or sleep during his classes. i like our prof and the subject too. my classmates will surely agree with this.

that's it. my first time to have a sem-ender review on my subjects.

a gigabyte of photos

timeline: life in photos

cyril, jandi, zaf, shobe, jue. at people's park because we're bored like a board.

sleepover at shobe's house.

SPC trancends. intrams 2011, 1st night. i watched formal cheering, i remember, a dancer from some team accidentally hit my camera because she was running too fast and accidentally hitting my classmate's face!

after hosting an intrams night event, i went home because i miss my nieces and nephwes. anyway, she is yna, she has piranha teeth. that's the 1st day of her chickenpox (which i did not notice), after finding out the next day she has already lesions, i freaked out, i don't want chickenpox, not now!

this is Jano, very cute, right?!

of course, i went home because i missed masabad maddox. he's heavy already and knows how to run. chase me tita!

after intrams: i got sick because of drinking almost a liter of very cold iced-tea and never took water after drinking. from sore throat to cough, headache, runny nose

my friends were telling me that we should have our nail art on our nails, but it was freaking expensive and we came out having manicure treatment and colored nail polish on intrams. anyway, i was inspired to try my very own nail art, but it was not that "art" you called in nail arts. haha

reject

i feel so rejected. i feel rejection most of the time from people i usually hang out with. there is something in me that every act they do, i do evaluations and make conclusions, ie. they hate me because i over react on some simple things like exaggerating that i am sick. like, i answer pilosopong-tasyo style on their queries, i brag, i make excuses. i know, hindi uunlad ang isang tao pag iniisip niya ang tingin sa kanya ng tao. sorry, i'm too being sensitive/paranoid. anyway, i am sick. cough with phlegm, runny nose, headache when i cough, back ache, in short, i am sick because i stress myself in the internet, i usually go online up to 2am then sleep for 7-8 hours only, plus i don't take vitamins and i don't eat healthy foods, include the rainy/stormy-sunny weather and the raging floods.

Dear God, pls help me in my final exams, i hope i can study well and don't face facebook but to face my books. i pray that i can answer all the questions correctly and will be healthy again on review and exams days. bless me Lord God that i can make tipid of my allowance and to avoid the temptation of junk foods and softdrinks. Bless me Oh Lord and thank You for all the blessings you have showered upon us. and Bless the soul of my cousin's husband, may he rest in peace with You. Amen.

PS: i did hosting on our intramurals day 3, but i have no decent picture to upload online. they said, i did well, but i strongly believe that i did not and i did not meet their expectations. most of the comments i got, i have a very soft and low voice. uhm, excuse me?! i was like shouting! anyway, i met new friends, my co-hosts. they were experts! the girl is a band vocalist, so expect she's used to entertain people and have a very good and loud voice. the other one was a boy, he was an english speaker, he does not speak tagalog or bisaya, so expect he said everything in pure english (and very little tagalog pala, haha). i impersonated Crissy, the impersonator of kris aquino. the rest was history. it was not really that memorable, i'm just bitter, i know. haha

intrams tantrums, coz they sound alike

i'll be hosting SPCs intramurals day 3, vocal solo and impersonation, events on a wednesday night. and i'm so kinukulbaan kay dili ko kabalo maghimo ug hosting spiels ug dili na ko gina-expect na serious show diay akong i-host. i thought i'll be hosting a funny show because i was accepted in the screening doing Ruffa Mae Quinto and Crissy impersonations. but i don't know what happened. it's my first time to talk in my school's stage with microphone, a booming sound system, splash of stage lights, and a thick crowd, plus, it's a whole night event. so, God bless me!

of morality

inspired ako sa bioethics kong subject, affected ako sa moral issues ng abortion, contraception, genetic engineering etc. haha.

recollection

last week, we went to dominican house of prayers and had our last recollection. it was fun! but i liked last yr's reco because we cried buckets. we had our picnic too, we brought junk foods, drinks but i brought chocolates. i had my confession too, hmm, it was awkward i tell you. it's the most awkward confession i have so far! haha. the snacks and meals were so good too. yummy spaghetti, sinigang na hipon, fried chicken and pancakes too! we're too busy taking photos too! and yes! we have our class picture again! I <3 pharmacy 3A.

i feel so pretty with this cute pink cap and minnie mouse blouse. bwahaha.

thanks to jandi for the multiple shots! haha. miss universe 2011, eh?!


the people i love! through flunks, thin and thick, rain or shine! haha.

sorry for the load of photos in this post and the post below this post. i just feel like blogging, i don't want my thoughts to disappear and i don't want my memories to fade.

i know, i'm not active anymore in blogging, i don't have readers, but i don't really need them. i just need some memory box to keep my stories/lies/tales/news/randomness. because i usually read my posts at the end of the year to reminisce what i've done on that year. kthanksbye!

nvc, smg

hello reader/s (if someone is reading this, okay!) last saturday and sunday, zaf ang I joined this school's student mentors' group acquaintance party, basic mentoring seminar and teambuilding activity held at jones beach resort, talomo, davao city. it wasn't not fun-at all. there was fun (but not to the highest level). honestly, i was so dismayed:(. the food and place were fine, but the accommodation and feeling of belongingness from the group members were so static (did i just use "static", omg!). in fact, out of 60+ members, 20+ were from BMLS (medtech), 2 from Pharmacy (i and zaf) and the rest were nursing students. i am not against bsn students or what, but I feel we don't belong to the group. bsn is bsn, bmls is bmls, pharm is pharm. i thought we'll be acquainted well in the acquaintance party to make us one, but what happened is too far away from the word "acquaintance". i liked the speakers in basic mentoring seminar, but at the end, we (i and zaf) found ourselves busy taking photos from different corners of the function hall. the teambuiding was harsh, we played this football (but it's not football actually, they just called it that way) under the raging uv rays of sun and the sizzling sand! let me tell you with these pictures.

function hall

aqc party: she's zaf, and she tried to portray like an OWL, but what happened? haha. we used fabric paints instead of face paint. it says there "do not prolong contact with skin", but the officers insisted. wtf.

if we're bored, i take photos like this. and like that below.

i was bored in basic mentoring seminar. my supposed to be way hair is not wavy anymore! haha

i slept at the upper deck of the double-deck bed.

aside from that, i'll show you a photo i took last year, it's a piece of paper that made my november and december 2010 busy months! i'm just so down and dissapointed because i've been waiting for almost 7 months, and i still got no replies from them. my sister said, i'll just wait, december of this year or next year, perhaps. i hope so!

ugh

i feel so rejected from the people around me. maybe i'm paranoid, who needs psychiatric attention, ugh, i hate this feeling. i felt this since last week. there are times i prefer to work/study alone, or silent in class or maybe i'm thinking too much or thinking that i'm just over reacting on people's actions/deeds towards me :/ i feel so useless and worthless, or may be i'm missing someone or missing or LOOKING for people's attention. yes, attention-seeker, pleasure-seeker, or whatever it is, ugh! plus the fact that our recollection didn't help me to overcome my case! another plus, that i feel so envious on people around me, they're happy, i'm not :(. and my academic performances too, affect my mood (because of low scores, even though i study hard!), this is like rejection.

i know, i know, i have wonderful people around me, i have Him, family, friends, relatives, but promise, i don't know:( ugh. so help me God.

acq party 2011

i enjoyed the party so much!!!!!! better than the 2 preview acq parties i had. we won 2nd place in group impersonation, not bad at all! it's like, everyone-is-waiting-for-our-performance-haha-because-we-looked-so-glam-and-dead-serious-acting-like-dreamgirls-and-destiny's-child-hahaha. after party, we went to torres, and ate yogurt, yoh froz babey!

acq

acquaintance party tomorrow, i will join the group impersonation, we're the dreamgirls! chos! hoping... we'll win!

anyway, i'm a new member of mentor's group (the geekiest group ever!), there are only 2 pharma students, me and zafara! haha. need to get to know people from bsn, bmls and AS department. chos!

cofi

gusto ko magpunta sa green coffee, chos!

manga

hi. i went to gmall today and i saw these cosplayers strolling around the mall. i hate it. i don't know, i was just so annoyed with cosplaying stuffs. may be because i'm not an anime lover (and i will never be, except of course for disney, nickeledeon, cartoon network cartoons!). another, may be those cosplayers who are not pleasant to look at with their costumes and make up on. they praise foreign acts rather than acknowledging Filipino stuffs, where's patriotism and itangkilik ang sariling atin, anyway? why are these people spend money on their costumes, make up, anime toy collections if they can save it in the bank, or in some needs? i'm just wondering! hello, why don't you spend your time on education? money on food? on the brighter side, at least, these people don't take prohibited drugs, that's good anyway. but still, let's be practical, people! ok. so much for that. chos! i'm practicing freedom, anyway, so don't get me wrong. chos again!

may taning na buhay ko

hello, i'm sick! prelims... done! (july 21-23) i took basic statics with fever, i was shivering because of the very cold environment, hanglakas ng ercon! on the last day, i took the exams (RS, history, physical pharmacy) with fever, headache and body fatigue. imagine, physical pharmacy has calculations, hindi ako makaconcentrate, ok lang ang history and rs, na keri ko pa. Pharmacology is so so deadly, i've read !@#$%^&*( powerpoint presentations, and maliit lang lumabas. ok. but i think, i passed, hopefully. multiple choice bitaw and exam. haha. anyway, most of our pharmacy subjects are using scantron sheets. multiple choice type of exam, you shade the box of your answer, this is to train us for the future board exams. i like it because, if you don't know the answer you can "bantot-bantot" the letter, i don't like it because, i hate shading! masyadong masakit sa maskels ng kamay.

as what i've said, i'm sick, maybe due to stress (lack of sleep, no proper nourishment, overwork) and weather. i'm sick until now, and it's 3 of us, Me, zaf and nick! friends nga naman. haha. chos!

fcfghjjeep

Right after the discussion of requirements for Prelims in RS 400, I went home directly. I took the jeepney as a ride home. As the jeepney’s engine started to sound, I immediately recalled the “My Philosophy of Life” article to be submitted. Lugar lang manong, the jeep stopped. And I started to think. What could be the best things to describe my philosophy? I asked myself. I worried. I worried because i don’t know what really is my life’s philosophy. I paused for a second and watched the sceneries and people, they made me think, again. Lugar lang, lihog sa bayad, words of another passenger, the jeep stopped again. And i continued to think. After a short distance, at least 100 meters after the last jeep stop, another passenger asked Manong to stop. I was pissed off of the simultaneous stopovers of the jeep, I was in a hurry because the clouds started to darken, I predicted that it would rain heavily. Still in the jeep, i kept thinking and thinking until I have realized, life is a beautiful process but at the same time a very monotonous and dull, just exactly like a jeepney ride! (Because of the numerous stopovers before you reach your final destination). The red light flashed, again, the jeep I was on stopped. I sighed. I’ve realized, life has no turning back and has no power to look for shortcuts, you just have to wait. The green light appeared, the jeep went on. Not a very long distance, some students from a nearby school rode on the jeep. They were laughing, noisy and very happy. I’ve realized, life has so much to offer, from beautiful gifts wrapped by people you encounter- family, friends, relatives, who, will eventually touch you, mold, develop and affect you. The passenger students somehow made my heart laugh because they’re so funny and nice to look at. They also made me angry, I hate the very boisterous laughters that were very hurting in the eardrums. The jeepney stopped, one of the students got off waving her right hand with matching “Babye” from her mouth. A thought sprouted, happiness isn’t always there, there will be sadness, sorrow, sacrifices and goodbyes. The jeepney ride continued. I was busy browsing my contacts in cellphone when suddenly a couple who was seating beside me loudened their voices, as if they were competing using high-pitched voices. They were fighting. But what I can remember was, they we’re too sweet, cuddled a little with held hands just a minute ago before they shrieked their voices out. I’ve realized, life is a box of astonishment. Sometimes, we were so overwhelmed with joy and suddenly, boom! They’re all gone, and what was left was chaos. Manong Driver was curious about the couple’s argument, he interrogated. They answered. He asked them to stay calm, talk harmoniously so that they will be reconciliated. The couple did. I laughed quietly in my mind. I never thought of a driver who was brave enough to fix the lovers’ quarrel, I was just so amazed. I’ve realized, life, despite of some negative vibes, mysteries and surprises, it has really a lot to offer, a lot. There will be Someone who will cheer us up, comfort and enlighten us. Someone Who has the power to make us strong and believe that life is just so good and wonderful as long as we have faith in Him. Lugar lang, lihog sa bayad, salamat. I uttered. I opened my umbrella, stepped down the jeep and sighed. I’ve realized, things aren’t always going to be fair in the real world. That’s just the way it is. But for the most part, you get what you give. Life is, uhm, still so good.

-project ko, i know, inconsistent tsaka pangit. hindi ako marunong sa mga ganito. bwahahaha

oh my! 200th post!

bye torres! hello tionko!

last photos i took at the old apt. hihi. kshare. kthanksbye!

24 hours and counting

i am not wonderwoman, i am not darna. but i can go for more than 24 hours without sleep! but still, alive and kicking! in fairness, mas madali ang pagmemorize ko sa Rizal. still, screw the mocha kanga cooler i ordered last night! and yes, i cried twice today, i've been forcing myself to sleep, but i'm lacking some serotonin, i think. chos!

tables

hi. we had this assignment in basic statistics, cross tabulation, make a table for this 15 patients and then interpret the table. since, i haven't understood cross tabulation (though i have my table na, pero walang interpretation), i made a masterpiece. hihi. i don't know why i made this, and why this picture made me laughed. hihi again.

dad and jog

hi there. happy father's day!

ps: i don't have saturday classes, that's why i did jogging and aerobics at people's park yesterday, about 5:30-6:30 am. i had 4 laps of jogging and 2 laps of walking. i really enjoyed the aerobics, so fun. i kinda like to demand more running shoes and original sportwears to nanay's shopping! it's 1:07 am, i only have 4 hours of sleeping left. i'l do it again later. i hope i could do it again. i'll have stiff neck for sure, i didn't have the chance to warm-up, so yeah, formation of lactic acid crystal, which caused me to be like paralyzed, muscle pain, dude. just imagine, after 2 years of being a couch potato and lazy-college-student-who-does-not-work-out-except-for-sports-in-PE.

pps: we have a new room/boarding house! much cheaper than our 8k apartment (plus e-bills and inet-bills) (imagine a college girl who is non-working and another jobless lady who pay 10k a month, imagine, they don't earn, which eventually leads to bankruptcy). kidding. too big amount of money for us to pay!

say what?

hi! i passed our pharmacy comprehensive exam. i got an average of tantararan, 83! i ranked 7th, overall (out of 140+, i think). i'm just so glad for passing area 2 and 6 which were the most difficult areas. i got 76 in area 2 and 78 on the other. another thing that made me burst into happiness was, i did not really study or let's say, i didn't put so much effort on that exam but still, i passed. i'm proving something to myself and everyone else, you know what i mean. anyway, i don't feel like celebrating knowing that some friends partially passed and some classmates failed:( but still, i THANK YOU LORD FOR ANOTHER BLESSING, and yes, i'm still a scholar, i got a whooping 88 in biochem na akala ko walang pag-asa dahil sa laboratory. i'm just so proud to tell my parents i passed and my grades are getting better than last 2nd sem. heehee. good gifts for parents aside from being a good daughter. lol.

6 days for vacation after summer shitloads

we had our summer final exam last may 24th, (biochem and world lit), the day after that day, 25th, went to abreeza to detoxify, walked, ate, walked, debated, walked and ate at a sorry-huh-nabibwiset-ako-dun-sa-kinain-ko-bwiset-the-price-is-not-right. lol. of course, hindi mawawala ang 5 (?) nights na sleepover dito sa apartment, i enjoyed too much, i was stressed too. no sleep at all, kumbaga. imagine pa, kinabukasan, 8am, may review ka pa sa major subjects mo from 1st year, imagine, last last year pa yun. i'll be leaving some photos, they will tell you what made me busy and what i did these past few weeks.

sched for review

sched for comprehensive exam

i wish/hope/PRAY, Lord, sana pumasa po ako sa comprehensive exam. ayoko ko pong ma P1 (probation 1), ayoko rin po ng partial pass, mahal kasi magretake ng exam, 700php/area po kasi. magastos na po masyado, naaawa na ako kay nanay. :) :(

ps:a very good friend told me, "jue ba, masyado ka nang luxurious sa pagkain"
jue: i know right. sabi kasi ni nanay, hindi ako magshopping, i never did. sabi niya, sa pagkain lang daw ako maggasto, masunurin ako eh.

and yes! i'm so maarte-na-when-it-comes-to-food-unlike-nung-1st-year-pa-ako. shet! need to cut some food expenses na:(

potassium. thanks. bye (kthanksbye)

of demons and satan agents

click THIS: this is the worst and the MOST HURTING article i've ever read. it's about an abortion camp, but more like of satan's camp. *tears *tears

some comments say it's like a satirical post or something, like a joke, maybe. but i still don't get it!

bipolar means two polar. ha!

i like you- before. i really LIKED you. but what happened? i don't understand you. why do you need to pretend that you like my company? why do you need to tell lies and stories just to be with me? ha! excuse me, you're busted!

i mean, matagal ko nang alam. feeling mo siguro ang tanga-tanga ko noh?! haha. sa tagal ng ating pinagsamahan, tinuruan mo akong magbasa ng bawat galaw at salitang binibitawan mo. nung una, ok pa tayo, natural pa ang flow, kumbaga. pero nung nag-umpisa ka nang magpakita ng signs and symptoms, sabi ko "eto na, konti na lang". and poof! it became koko crunch! malutong pa sa koko crunch! hindi naman sana ako susulat nito kung hindi mo ginawa ang ginawa mo bago lang. nabibwesit ako sa iyo. pero minsan naaawa rin. ewan ko sa iyo. may nagsabi sa akin, baka may BIPOLAR DISORDER ka. hindi ko alam kung anung sakit na yan, pero alam kong neurological disorder yan at kailangan mo magpadiagnose.

pero sa katunayan, mas nangingibabaw ang awa ko kaysa inis ko sa'iyo, hindi kita mabitawan sa ere, kahit anu pa ang ginagawa mo, andiyan pa rin ako, totoo kasi feelings ko sa'iyo. kahit sa ginagawa mong kabalastugan, nagpapakatanga pa rin ako, para sa ATIN. sayang kasi ang nasimulan, di ba? ok lang kung hindi mo pa kayang sabihin ang lahat sa akin, naiintidihan kita. sana malaman mo, napapagod rin ako mag tanga-tangahan sa harap mo, pagod na pagod na talaga ako. promise. hindi ako susuko, kakayanin ko ito! kasi alam ko sa huli, may magandang patutunguhan ang aking "pag-aarte/pagtatanga-tangahan". magiging maganda ang ating relasyon. alam ko rin, na sa huli, magkakaroon ka na ng "guts" na sabihin lahat ng feelings mo. but i'm telling you right now, you can tell your feelings and you can turn all you lies into truths right now, i'm very willing to listen and understand your side, sorry for being so judgmental all the time. i know, you know that i love you!

feeling ko, alam mo blog link ko, kung nabasa mo ito at natamaas ka, tumpak! ikaw na nga ito. haha. kapayapaan pa rin ang hangad ko. salamat.

ps: parang ako ata ang may bipolar disorder, dahil sa post kong ito. kaloka.

of ayala center davao

good thing, abreeza (an ayala mall) has opened. i like the fact that it's open now. new place for tambay, new environment to stroll, i like the interiors, the stores and almost everything. but i hate the fact that it causes a very very very very very very heavy traffic. i know, it's normal cause it was its first day. but consider this: a usual 5-10 min jeepney ride took us more than an hour! plus the very sticky sweat running down on your forehead to your cheeks to your neck down to your cleavage. consider this again, the taxi and jeepney drivers who took naps on a national high way while vehicle engines are on. plus the streaking and sizzling uva rays given by the sun. haha. i know, ako rin! MANUL. haha. i saw enchong dee anyway, and joseph marco and jake roxas. haha. fangirlism!

i like the fact too, that forever 21 store was not there. thank God! i don't know why some people wish to have it here, (as if naman, ano, haha!). if it was there, i would discard half in my closet. joke. sorry for being so selfish, but i really hate it when i've stumbled in a person with the same blouse/t-shirt/design as mine! consider it as an embarrassment! but i think, f21 phil and f21 usa items are not alike.

starbucks in davao is so trending! imagine, not everyone loves coffee, and imagine a very long line outside starbucks. and imagine photographs of people holding grande frappes. haha.

Gmall (gaisano mall) which i think, the busiest mall in davao seems to be so silent for the past 3 days. haha. i know, everything will be back in normal after a month or so.

ok. nonsense.

on mother's day

i phone called my nanay in california, she's off-duty anyway. i greeted her "nanay, happy mother's day! i love and i miss u!", i always tell her i love you before hanging up the phone whenever we talk. it's not corny, i promise! it's the very best thing to do especially showing your love and thank them! but i feel awkwardness when i talk to tatay. haha. bias much.

i texted my sister in nevada, she didn't reply, i called her. unfortunately, it was 1am, that means they're all asleep. i left a message, kasi sosyal, answering machine ang nagsagot sa akin. one word, MANUL. i greeted her, the usual greeting.

i also texted my two other sisters in isulan and some friends. posted a picture in fb with i think the 4 loveliest mothers in the world. NANAY, and my 3 sisters. aside from that, i greeted myself "happy mother's day", too. i agreed with someone who greeted me that thing. you know, in my clan, i'm the youngest in both of my father and mother's cousins. it means, i have !@#$%^&*() nieces and nephews (i don't know exactly the number of my pamangkins). some graduated, some were married, and still babies. but those who are closer to my heart are my 6 pamangkins, who never fail to give me joy and happiness and kisses and backpains, and headaches and rants and tears. they're so wonderful, they're my kids, not from my womb but they're my kids because i love them and they love me back. i am their Tita A-an and mama A-an. (when they were still learning to talk, they always pronounce my name Tita Jo Anne as Tita A-an. i like it anyway, it sounds cool.

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a funny conversation with a good friend

summer lovin'

one of the best summer swimming event ever! thank you guys! esp to Cyril and cyril's mom who gave us the free pool tickets to apo view.

cool people:

kyna, diane, dane, leyenne, april, shobe, zaf, jandi, nick, cyril and 3 more guys who are other halves of some girl's name i mentioned. hihi.

good time to relax, parang walang report at quiz kinabukasan ah. haha. uber late dinner at Toryano's afterwards. that was so tiring, srsly.

summer's uva

oh, you look at the camera and say hello! hello there!

anyway, i went home last week because it's holy week. so good to be back home! aside from last week, the last time i saw isulan was dec 26, 2010, i celebrated new year in dvo, fyi.

maundy thursday. last supper at house. freaking tired and sleepy!

Maundy thursday. cousins with love:)

Good Friday. procession. i nailed the 2-layer curtains using thumb tacks. plus the not so good flower arrangement. freaking tired and dirty. poor right thumb.

summer classes. biochem lab is so toxic. it's driving me to hell. imagine 6 hours of wearing proper and complete laboratory attire plus a hmmmmm lab instructor. plus very tiring journal, pre lab and post lab after experiment. kaloka. anyway, that's a heart, u know cardiac muscles? they're real. lol

i miss u baby

i miss them so much!
1st photo: kuya josh, ate ianna and baby yna as star wars casts. hihi

2nd photo: bottle-feeding baby maddox as master yoda (but looks like shrek!) hihi

3rd photo: new baby in the family, my states-side baby andre! never saw him in person. that makes me gigil na gigil to see him.

4th photo: states-side ate danica, andre's sister. i look like her, especially the eyes.(that is, when i was still a kid:)

heehee. i'm such a tita. they never fail me to give me joy and smiles:) i love u babies!

serving people is the best way to serve God.

at Gawad Kalinga-Tibungco.

I miss GK Tacurong, i miss the kids. i remember, i've promised to those kids that i'll be going back. i made that promise 2 years ago:(

photo credit goes to: Diane. thanks diane!

witchililey bambini cologne fresh

hay nako, may stalker sa paligid. hahaha. bang!

congrashuleyshens

good day everyone. hahahaha

chocolates, a pair of shoes, 7 bras, olay soaps, garnier conditioner, spam, vienna sausage, f21 blouses, a one-thousand peso bill. they made my day! hehehehe

new layout. hihihihi.
advance merry Christmas. hohohoho
i can't go home, i miss kids :( huhuhuhu

ps: i removed my chatbox, i don't like seeing my chatbox full of alien words like this dsavdgjvcsdxgwreqgtu'.,jmg

psp: i forgot to tell you, i have at least 2 inches long and 2 cm wide whatever-you-call-this-thing in my gorgeous right leg when i placed the cracked egg in the hot frying pan with sizzling cooking oil. oil splashed down my leg. and now, i can't wear shorts. loser. i need the very expensive contratubex gel to get rid of the future scars.

hahehihohu

chervamels and oooh oooh

oh, hello there! just got home from our not-so fine dining event. my precious toes sore. i hate my pink but really cute heels i bought last week. i did enjoy the public speaking event because we're too busy taking pictures but i didn't enjoy my 300php worth of food and hall settings. i am so dismayed.

i haven't posted for a long time. nothing much happened except our killer exams. i told nanay that i think i'm losing my academic scholarship, she replied "ok, study lang". i know i did my best for this sem, but i know too that i'm lazy, always. i've been telling myself that this summer, i'll do my very very very very best, study more, facebook less, sleep more, speak my heart out more and more. i want to be ACTIVE, PARTICIPATIVE like who i was way back in high school. i want to make noise, academic and a remarkable noise. let's see what i can do for now.

anyway, who needs a new layout? who needs make-over? waaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh. it's meeee! it's been like a year or so that i haven't changed my layout. loser me. but i promise my dear blog, you'll havge a new dress before summer classes, love-me.

speaking of summer classes, i'm still a loser. on april 4th, i'm going home to isulan, yes! you read it right. the last time i saw our home was last year. ok. and i'm going back to davao on 6th! i have 2 nights at home. nanguli pako! it's okay. i badly miss my nieces and nephews, and tatay too! i don't miss my sister, cause we're fighting always. haha.

ok. adios.

8 hrs and done

hi, i'm a thief because i stole this picture from kyna without asking permission. to you kyna, sorry. haha

*8 more hours and i'm done with my community internship at watsons!
*how sweet is it to be loved by a mother who shops for her daughter!
*let's pray, we'll be okay. He's with us, always.

3 days left

srsly, u need memory enhancers for endless dosage forms, generic names, brand names and prices for these things.

i need 10 thousand pesos worth of pain relievers for my gorgeous body. pamaol from PE and internship.

day 22: overtime. 10 hours. hey! highest sale ever, 11, 840 php, 300 drugs for a single person. amazing is, those 300 drugs are her monthly maintenance, but in fact., she said, her monthly drug bill is worth 35 thou! i'm just wondering if her liver metabolizes properly or her kidney filters/excretes more. i'm just so f tired that day.

day 23: nothing really much happened. except for this conversation with a lola.

lola: robitussin miss
jue: for kids maam?
lola: oo miss. maganda ka miss ba.
jue: *smiles* thank u po.
lola: maganda ka na doctor.
jue: hindi po ako doctor, intern pa lang po ako.
lola: aaah, ako rin, pharmacy graduate sa PWU sa manila. ikaw?
jue: estudyante pa lang maam, 2nd yr college, sa san pedro college
lola: aaah, wag ka mag madre huh, maganda ka pa naman.
jue: ahaha. thank u maam.

*went to next customer* nabigay na ang drugs ni lola

lola: miss, sino yun siya?
PA: ah, si jo anne po.
lola: jo anne!
jue: (from back area) yes maam?
lola: mag-aral ka nang mabuti, wag ka mag-asawa ng pangit, doctor bagay sa yo. maganda ka.
jue: *smiles* *naglapad ang atay, hydrocephalic* hahahahaha

this made my day, wait, plus.

a super gwapong customer who looked for a drug for his toothache, and natataranta ako kung anu ang ipeprescribe ko! gikulbaan sa pagkagwapo sang tawo. shet.

i need to share this, i mean keep this story, this will serve as my diary-project for my internship to be passed to my internship instructor.

thank u.