maayo nga bag-ong tuig mga friends, ma ilonggo lang ko, kapoy isip sing tama nga grammar.
ambot ngaa ko gibuksan ang blogger.com, wala man ko topic or maski ano nga gusto ishare. ah, maisip anay ko, ano man? ay sige, ari oh
akon ante, sa side ni tatay, napatay, si ante inday, tungod daw sa lung cancer, namisdiagnosed pa gid sya, kaluoy. pero at least, nakapahuway na gid sya tarong, nakita ko man abi iya sufferings kag sacrifices tong buhi pa sya, masubo lang gid, new year pa gid abi kag 4 days after her 71st bday. sige lang, upod niya man ang Ginoo naton.
ari, mashare naman ko sa akon love life, ay hindi man sya love life, pero ambot kung LOVE gid man, gaduha duha pako kung love ko gid man sya or char2 lang siguro, pero basta bal-an ko nahurt gid ako tong nagdesisyon kami na keep distance anay kami, ahay, wala pa gane isa ka semana ang bag-ong tuig nakahibi na ko ya. amo abi ni oh, chatmate kag textmate ko sya tong sa pilipinas ako, asta nakaabot ko 4 months dire sa vegas, sya akon kaistorya kada hapon asta gab-i asta mag alas dos sing kaagahon (sa pinas morning-afternoon), amo ako sina magpulaw sa internet para lng maistorya sya, video chat, voice msgs, text msgs, maski tong Christmas kag new year, nag video chat kami, siyempre makahappy, kay ginakilig ko, at least bal-an ko may tao nga special ang tan.aw sa akon, hambal niya pa gane, gitrato nya ko as "uyab" nya, inlove daw sya sa akon, ako naman, hindi ko bal-an, pero siyempre hnd mn ko magdeny, gusto ko man sya. alangan, magpulaw ba ko asta 2am kung di ko sya gusto?? pero gipigilan ko lang gid kay hindi pa pwede, malayo ang las vegas sa davao, wala pako trabaho and most of all, wala pako kwarta pangbakal ticket, kag siyempre, career first anay ko. pero basta nahurt gid ko tong "keep distance" conversation namon, sa kadugayan sa amon online communication, ginapangita nya na presence ko, which is imposible pa subong. kung subong, mas madala ihatag ang love ko, kay sa presence. charaught gud. igat2 lang tani plano ko pay, pero boooom, nagsineryusohanay man. iba ni nga laki, hindi ni tong ex ko nga pirme ko ginamention sa akon mga posts. iba duman ni sya, mas maayo ni batasan.
subong nga tuig 2014, plano ko siyempre, mangita gid trabaho, mabalhin guru ko sa los angeles next month, didto ko mangita work, maski sales girl, or waitress anay tapos prcess ko dayun akon pharm tech certification sa state of california. sunod na ng gugma, bal-an ko may ara gid para sa akon, may gihatag gid ang Ginoo para sa akon, it's either nagmeet na kmi or magmeet pa kami sa future, pero bal-an ko may ara gid. lovable man ko nga babaye, gwapa man ko, buot man ko, ayos man akon personality, bright kag talented. chossssss. kabalo pa gid ko magluto, maghugas pinggan, limpyo balay, laba kag expert ko magbantay bata. limpyado man ko sa akon lawas, wala sakit kag determinado sa mga bagay2 na gusto maabot. amo lang to. kaihion na gid ko. publish ko na ni. babayu
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
2013
hi. it's been 5 months since my last post, sorry for not updating you bloggie, it's either i'm lazy or not in the mood or got nothing to share or all of the above. so kung hindi pa magnenew year, hindi rin ako magpopost. ugggh, i regret it, not updating u. but whatever, i'll post everything that i remember. okay. here it is:
JANUARY 2013
what i remember here is that, i started dating again my ex, yes, we dated, we watched a movie, talked, walked, ate, and what else? ah yah, we were texting and calling again. this was also the month of our class retreat in preparation for our graduation. i cried, like i-cried-to-the-point-that-i-cant-breathe. it was because of the letter sent by again, u know, my ex. i don't really remember what i did this time in school. all i remember was we were reviewing for our pharmacy licensure exam (PLE) and i was still seriously studying for finals, and of course, i was super excited for our graduation.
FEBRUARY 2013
what did i do? aaaah still busy in review for PLE and academics. it's the love season, i celebrated Valentine's with my girl friends. i haven't received any flower or chocolates or letters or anything cheesy stuff. i was expecting something from someone, but forget about it, there's nothing. it was feb 14, in abreeza, my friends were crying because of some heart breaking things were happening. it will never be forgotten. what else? ah, my 20th birthday. i and cyril (twin bday) with friends celebrated it at cafe laguna. we just ate dinner, talked and laughed. this was also the month that i was expecting someone will return, my ex boyfriend, but it did not happen.
MARCH 2013
this was the one of the most heart breaking month, my aunt died, at the same time, one of the happiest. i graduated in college. i was too bitter on its first week, that was the time my friends told me i wasn't a latin honor awardee. it's just heartbreaking, knowing that all my sacrifices in college and all my efforts and time were not enough. medyo nakakahiya kay nanay, umuwi ng pinas to attend my grad, she was expecting an award for me. this was also the time i was telling myself to forget my ex and to start moving on. last wk of march, i went back to america for a new visa stamp, stayed 8hrs in LA and 8 days in las vegas. went home again to continue my review for PLE
APRIL 2013
first week, still in America, enjoying my first spring season. went back to PH. i don't really remember every detail here, but i know i was still too busy in my review, the massive and intensive one.
MAY 2013
no social life. just massive and intensive review. i think, its last week was the start of our self review. i was studying and reviewing for like 10-12 hours a day. 8 hrs sleep, 4-6 hours eating/bath/napping/resting/doing nothing.
JUNE 2013
the PLE month. the nerve-cracking month. on june 10th, i filed my exam application in PRC. june 25th, the day i've been waiting for 4 years. judgement day. the PLE DAY. i took the examination without sleep. yes, WITHOUT SLEEP! i was awake for more than 24 hrs. after the last subject for that day, i slept for 10 hours. june 26th, last day of PLE. still, i was so nervous.
JULY 2013
PLE results came out. yes, I PASSED. with a board rating of 86 point something. not bad. haha. i dont really remember what i did on this month. i was a professional tambay in our house/isulan. its last week was our oath taking.
AUGUST 2013
started the month in a beach, in Gumasa!!!! yes, finally, after months of reviewing for boards, finally, beach and i finally met. thanks to my friend's thanksgiving party. i super duper megablockbuster enjoyed the beach, of course, what made it so fun was i was with my friends and foods. i also went to davao to attend another friend's thanksgving party and partied in kadayawan.
SEPTEMBER 2013
started the month in iloilo with some HS friendssssss, one of the highlights of my 2013. we went to guimaras, dived, rode a boat, ate mangoes, bought pasalubongs, PARTIED, got drunk. aaaahh, just enjoying life. on september 9th, i flew to the US, and yes, i'm here in las vegas, writing this one now. my BER months in america. september-up to now, i'm usually busy baby sitting my nieces and nephew, housekeeping, chatting with this guy and friends, sleeping or eating. got my pharm technician license in nevada.
OCTOBER 2013
first halloween trick or treat experience in america. what else? aaah, baby sitting, housekeeping, job hunting, chatting, sleeping, eating
NOVEMBER 2013
first thanksgiving day celebration, what else? aaah, baby sitting, housekeeping, job hunting, chatting, sleeping, eating.
DECEMBER 2013
first Christmas in America, celebrated it with my eldest sister, nieces, nephew and bro-in-law. and yeah, first fil-am Christmas party held at bullhead, AZ. what else? aaah, baby sitting, housekeeping, job hunting, chatting, sleeping, eating and writing this.
and yes, i finally moved on. and someone asked another chance from me. ang tagal niya ring nakarealize ng worth ko ha. and i said no. (haba ng hair).
medyo sad rin kasi wala pa akong trabaho, ni isang tawag, wala :( kthanksbye
random 2013 photos:
2. post-graduation studio picture with my parents (march)
3. after boards studio picture (june)
4. curled my long straight hair, and had my new bangs. new hair color too
5. at my friend's thanksgivng party with some of my friends, enjoyed kadayawan after the party
6. Guimaras (september)
7. juicing and blending fruits and veggies. did this for like 2 mos (sep-oct)
8. my 2 licenses, RPh license in Ph and pharm tech license in Nevada
9. lying in gumasa sand (august)
10. first halloween trick or treat experience in townsquare, las vegas. aye aye captian outfit. lol
11. watched disney junior live with sister and fam.
12. in MGM grand with my beautiful mother (fall season)
13. Christmas pictorial
to sum it up. 2013 was just like another year i had in the past. got my heart broken, had regrets, laughs, tears, success and everything. thank You Lord for giving me an awesome 2013, especially for guiding me on those academic times, review months, 'down' moments but what i am most thankful for are the blessings you showered: graduation, pharmacist license, friends and of course, family. i love You so much Papa Jesus! i know You'll always be in my side this 2014.
(belated) Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2014.
ps: medyo nahihirapan pa rin akong magsalita ng english. at medyo bad grammar pa rin sa pagsulat nito, haaaaay, life, parang buhay.
JANUARY 2013
what i remember here is that, i started dating again my ex, yes, we dated, we watched a movie, talked, walked, ate, and what else? ah yah, we were texting and calling again. this was also the month of our class retreat in preparation for our graduation. i cried, like i-cried-to-the-point-that-i-cant-breathe. it was because of the letter sent by again, u know, my ex. i don't really remember what i did this time in school. all i remember was we were reviewing for our pharmacy licensure exam (PLE) and i was still seriously studying for finals, and of course, i was super excited for our graduation.
FEBRUARY 2013
what did i do? aaaah still busy in review for PLE and academics. it's the love season, i celebrated Valentine's with my girl friends. i haven't received any flower or chocolates or letters or anything cheesy stuff. i was expecting something from someone, but forget about it, there's nothing. it was feb 14, in abreeza, my friends were crying because of some heart breaking things were happening. it will never be forgotten. what else? ah, my 20th birthday. i and cyril (twin bday) with friends celebrated it at cafe laguna. we just ate dinner, talked and laughed. this was also the month that i was expecting someone will return, my ex boyfriend, but it did not happen.
MARCH 2013
this was the one of the most heart breaking month, my aunt died, at the same time, one of the happiest. i graduated in college. i was too bitter on its first week, that was the time my friends told me i wasn't a latin honor awardee. it's just heartbreaking, knowing that all my sacrifices in college and all my efforts and time were not enough. medyo nakakahiya kay nanay, umuwi ng pinas to attend my grad, she was expecting an award for me. this was also the time i was telling myself to forget my ex and to start moving on. last wk of march, i went back to america for a new visa stamp, stayed 8hrs in LA and 8 days in las vegas. went home again to continue my review for PLE
APRIL 2013
first week, still in America, enjoying my first spring season. went back to PH. i don't really remember every detail here, but i know i was still too busy in my review, the massive and intensive one.
MAY 2013
no social life. just massive and intensive review. i think, its last week was the start of our self review. i was studying and reviewing for like 10-12 hours a day. 8 hrs sleep, 4-6 hours eating/bath/napping/resting/doing nothing.
JUNE 2013
the PLE month. the nerve-cracking month. on june 10th, i filed my exam application in PRC. june 25th, the day i've been waiting for 4 years. judgement day. the PLE DAY. i took the examination without sleep. yes, WITHOUT SLEEP! i was awake for more than 24 hrs. after the last subject for that day, i slept for 10 hours. june 26th, last day of PLE. still, i was so nervous.
JULY 2013
PLE results came out. yes, I PASSED. with a board rating of 86 point something. not bad. haha. i dont really remember what i did on this month. i was a professional tambay in our house/isulan. its last week was our oath taking.
AUGUST 2013
started the month in a beach, in Gumasa!!!! yes, finally, after months of reviewing for boards, finally, beach and i finally met. thanks to my friend's thanksgiving party. i super duper megablockbuster enjoyed the beach, of course, what made it so fun was i was with my friends and foods. i also went to davao to attend another friend's thanksgving party and partied in kadayawan.
SEPTEMBER 2013
started the month in iloilo with some HS friendssssss, one of the highlights of my 2013. we went to guimaras, dived, rode a boat, ate mangoes, bought pasalubongs, PARTIED, got drunk. aaaahh, just enjoying life. on september 9th, i flew to the US, and yes, i'm here in las vegas, writing this one now. my BER months in america. september-up to now, i'm usually busy baby sitting my nieces and nephew, housekeeping, chatting with this guy and friends, sleeping or eating. got my pharm technician license in nevada.
OCTOBER 2013
first halloween trick or treat experience in america. what else? aaah, baby sitting, housekeeping, job hunting, chatting, sleeping, eating
NOVEMBER 2013
first thanksgiving day celebration, what else? aaah, baby sitting, housekeeping, job hunting, chatting, sleeping, eating.
DECEMBER 2013
first Christmas in America, celebrated it with my eldest sister, nieces, nephew and bro-in-law. and yeah, first fil-am Christmas party held at bullhead, AZ. what else? aaah, baby sitting, housekeeping, job hunting, chatting, sleeping, eating and writing this.
and yes, i finally moved on. and someone asked another chance from me. ang tagal niya ring nakarealize ng worth ko ha. and i said no. (haba ng hair).
medyo sad rin kasi wala pa akong trabaho, ni isang tawag, wala :( kthanksbye
random 2013 photos:
1. did this last march, for my niece's project. the first and biggest painting in a canvass/board that i did. (march)
to sum it up. 2013 was just like another year i had in the past. got my heart broken, had regrets, laughs, tears, success and everything. thank You Lord for giving me an awesome 2013, especially for guiding me on those academic times, review months, 'down' moments but what i am most thankful for are the blessings you showered: graduation, pharmacist license, friends and of course, family. i love You so much Papa Jesus! i know You'll always be in my side this 2014.
(belated) Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2014.
ps: medyo nahihirapan pa rin akong magsalita ng english. at medyo bad grammar pa rin sa pagsulat nito, haaaaay, life, parang buhay.
Saturday, July 13, 2013
dito ko na lang i-retweet
I need to stop thinking about you because i know you're not thinking about me.
and it hurts me so bad.
and it hurts me so bad.
Sunday, July 7, 2013
licensed pharmacist
dear bloggie,
hi blog, i miss you. i miss writing random, stupid and nonsense things here. anyway, what i would like to tell you is that, i am now a REGISTERED PHARMACIST of the philippines. yes! thank You Lord Jesus Christ! You are the best! after how many years of studying, from kinder, grade school, high school to college, finally, my sacrifices and all the things i have done to be a professional paid off na jud!
i thought graduating in college is fulfilling, but becoming a professional and passing thr board exam and having 3 -letter ad on on your name is more fulfilling, feels like nirvana, eh?! haha. i know it is just another start of a fruitful chapter in my life. i got tons of rice to eat pa to become what i want to become! i got so many plans in my life right now, i am leaving for good on septermber 9, and will be staying in Vegas or Los Angeles, i was thinking of taking the pharmacy assistant exam, if i pass, i will work in a community pharmacy, say, walgreens or cvs, or in walmart. a 2- year experience maybe is enough, then i'll take the foreign state board exam in nevada or california, save money, stay and live in new york. ugh, i've been dreaming of living in new york, put up a house there, build a family, basta ganun. i know Lord God, tabangan jud nimo ko dire kay u never fail me jud, You are always generous and always here beside me.
hi blog, i miss you. i miss writing random, stupid and nonsense things here. anyway, what i would like to tell you is that, i am now a REGISTERED PHARMACIST of the philippines. yes! thank You Lord Jesus Christ! You are the best! after how many years of studying, from kinder, grade school, high school to college, finally, my sacrifices and all the things i have done to be a professional paid off na jud!
i thought graduating in college is fulfilling, but becoming a professional and passing thr board exam and having 3 -letter ad on on your name is more fulfilling, feels like nirvana, eh?! haha. i know it is just another start of a fruitful chapter in my life. i got tons of rice to eat pa to become what i want to become! i got so many plans in my life right now, i am leaving for good on septermber 9, and will be staying in Vegas or Los Angeles, i was thinking of taking the pharmacy assistant exam, if i pass, i will work in a community pharmacy, say, walgreens or cvs, or in walmart. a 2- year experience maybe is enough, then i'll take the foreign state board exam in nevada or california, save money, stay and live in new york. ugh, i've been dreaming of living in new york, put up a house there, build a family, basta ganun. i know Lord God, tabangan jud nimo ko dire kay u never fail me jud, You are always generous and always here beside me.
- anyway, i am currently staying here in isulan, of course, sa akong HOME, it does not feel like home anymore to me, because i just feel it. i just love the presence of my nieces and nephews, at least that makes our house a little of "homey". anyway again, i've been spending my days,
- nights here on baby sitting, eating, playing with the kids, and staying up online until 3 am. i'm enhancing my skills on stalking. haha. anyway, the word "stalk" came out, (okay, this is another story), i believe he has now a girlfriend, and it's breaking me into pieces, i don't know if i have really moved on or i have just pretended that i have moved on. but i do believe, that, i did not. :( honestly, this is really painful. i've been telling my friends, cousin, to set me up with a guy, you know, just to "hang out" or say "flirt" so i can totally forget him, i just don't know why i am so fcking in love with him, honestly, he's not even gwapo, he's not smart, puro rin naman wrong grammar/spelling, he's not even my type, i mean he did not meet my standards, i just do not know. ka sad ng life ko oi, but life must go on. i'm too loyal. makakamove on lang siguro ako kapag may bago. but it's okay lang talaga, REGISTERED PHARMACIST bitaw ko. haha. sa states na siguro ako makakakita. hehehehe.
andami ko pang gustong sabihin, ito na lang muna, magbablog na ako at least twice a week, para naman marami akong basahin at the end of the year. self, stay strong!
PS: what is wrong with the blogger format here in ipad, i can't fix the the paragraph's alignment. ugh. take care!
Sunday, May 12, 2013
random
of random things
graduation
hi, i am now a degree holder of bachelor of science in pharmacy and an RPh in the making. currently, i am busy with my self review for board exam on june. well anyway, as what i've said, i have just graduated from a local pharmacy school last march 2013. no, i did not graduate with a latin honor title as what i've been aiming, i just did not, maybe it's not really for me, but i know i deserve that. i worked my ass off, i studied so hard, i woke up very early to study and stayed up so late in the evening to study. my final grades from 1st yr to 4th yr college were above 85, my average was 90 something, my grades are enough to be cum laude, but i lacked extra curricular activities, again, cum laude is not for me. yes, i am so bitter, but i got no choice, i have to accept it, it's the best for me.
spring 2013
i went back to america after graduation, again, to get a "new stamp" in my visa, in order not to forfeit my immigrant status. nothing really happened. as usual, i did baby sitting for 3 kids in vegas, stayed there for like 9 days, got my renewed nevada card and some mandalay bay tour and that was it. i went home to study and review for board exam. and i missed 4 days of pharmacology, feels like i missed 2 years of pharmacy school!!!
summer review class
i was back to the real world after america, i was back in facing my books, reviewers and i was back in starvation and poverty. but i preferred these stuffs than you know, baby sitting, at least i have what you call "independence and freedom". so here's the routine, 4 consecutive days of review classes, 2 days off (self study of what was reviewed in 4days), then 1 day exam. it was so tiring, imagine, waking up so early for 8am reciew then staying up so late at night to study then waking up again before 8am blah blah, cycle cycle.. and it's finally over. now is the time for our self review/study. anyway, such a good thing to know that i topped 3 exams out of 14 subjects, without reading pacop or any reviewers (galing rin kasi sa mga reviewers ang exams) unlike what others did. i just relied on what i ve read, studied, notes and what i know, and some common sense too. i failed 1 exam and that was pharmacology, it hurts you know.
of love and my future
if you happen to read my post 2 months ago, that is about not moving on, well right now, i think there's this "progress", you know, i cant deny the fact that there is still something, but what i am trying to say is that, i am near the finish line of totally moving on which again is a good thing. i know i dont deserve him, and he does not deserve me either. i am 20 years old, soon to be professional. i think i have to be matured enough uhmmm. ang hirap i-explain, basta ganun, my future guy should be matured too, professional, yung lalaking may sense of humor, di nadadala sa temptasyon, working, faithful, effortful, i am not looking for a perfect man, i just need someone who finds me sexy despite of my very big braso, butod na tiyan, broad shoulders, or someone who will just love me for the restof my life, yung may contentment sa buhay, a man who is deserving to be my husband, to break my virginity. hindi naman ako nagmamadali sa pag-aasawa, point ko lang dito, 20 na po ako, kailangan na rin magmature,mag isip nang maayos para sa future, yung next na lalaking iboboyfriend ko, siyempre, sana siya na rin si future, ampanget naman kasi 20 kana, pa fling-fling pa rin? or anu yan? friends with benefits?
continuing with science
i have this very ambitious goal, that is to study cancer (oncology) to become onco-pharmacist, but there's this big risk of infertility when you handle anticancer drugs. when i was in a jeep, i was also dreaming of studying molecular biology, that is, i want to become a geneticist, because i am so curious with this human genome project that i want to join them. haha. most of the time, i just want to proceed studying medicine, and be called doctora.
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